We
live in a world full of insecurities, passion…etc etc…but most
importantly aspirations and expectations. Well aspiration and
expectation are at the giving and the receiving end. But whatever it is
the person who faces them faces the blunt.
Out of my personal monodrama I feel grasping for breathe during my 10th 11th and 12th
class of my academic life. We were all groomed right from our early
days to jump right into the rat race. We thus got caught in the vicious
circle of aspirations and expectations. Everyone expected us to get into
IIT the premiere engineering institutions of India. Well it was such a
strong stereo-type that even we oriented ourselves to believing that we
ought to get into IIT and we will for sure get in there.
Fate beholds…..me and my circle did extremely brilliant in 10th
and our scores there fortified our belief and we ensured ourselves that
were cut out for the best. Post success we enrolled ourselves into
various coaching classes. In the subsequent days reality slapped us…we
wrote our school exams and the coaching classes progressed…we couldn’t
digest the fact that IIT was not our cup of tea. Following which we in a
false sense of pride and kept on making excuses and kept on assuring
everyone in and around us that v would put a good show in the final.
The whole 11th
passed on…..we enjoyed and enjoyed did we till the brim. But all was
not bright sunshine; we practically had fun in every aspect our lives
except academics. But we stuck to our excuses that 11th wasn’t important, all that counted was our 12th. 11th ended with below average results, but our pride stuck us to our IIT aspirations. It is in the early 12th
session that we realized that IIT was dream too far for us. We Indians
are known to be adaptive and compromising. Our “chaltha hai yaar”
attitude has a legendary fame in the society. We carried on the great
India legacy and came down to AIEEE, which was the next best engineering
franchise. Even in 12th
school exams our performance was below par and as usual the
procrastination infused attitude compelled us to think that we would
perform in the final Boards.
The
countdown for our Boards started and reality revisited us. We did sober
down a bit and I guess it was a bit late but not too late. Last few
days we put in mid-night toil and stuff and finally managed to scribble
something in the Boards. Well after boards we thought we could get back
to our fun and harmony days. But post exams it become very clear that we
were in a lot of trouble. Our anticipated experiments with passion,
aspiration, expectations and time had landed us in a peculiarly sticky
situation. We finally came to terms with our fate and realized that it
was now or never and we ought to make a final stand against fate.
We
shunned away all our pride a false sense pride that is and thought
AIEEE was not a sure shot but CET the next option was a practical
option. Some of the people stuck to AIEEE and some like me who were
tired of playing our lucks and of not much aspiration opted to coach
ourselves for CET. Our parents who spent thousands on IIT coaching were a
bit orthodox of us giving up on it but they too came to track with us
and very willingly paid thousands more for our AIEEE and CET coaching.
Often
I’m troubled by the guilt of letting down people but at the end I’m and
Indian and I’ll compromise and move ahead. The collect noun “we” I’ve
used includes all the people like me but it definitely excludes the
other breed of people who dreamt worked and I’m sure will achieve what
they wanted. I envy and respect those people who did so. But I do also
pat the people who dreamt worked but improvised a different path to
success. My hearty best luck to all the people of all the breeds.
Amazing!!!!
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